Wednesday, March 30, 2011


my lovely mother all growing up before taking family pictures, giving talks at church, going to fancy dances for school...really for any occasion would always say...
 "go put some blush on".
this is what always came to mind when i would hear blush...
no thanks!

but, i've said it once and i'll say it again, ma's always right!
i decided i need to up the ante with my makeup. so i tried blush. 
while at my favorite store i happened upon this lovely stuff. it's the perfect little pick-me-up to a drab, sick pregnant face!
i have not quite entered that "pregnancy glow" yet... still pretty much feeling/looking green all the time.


 you can find it in the store or go here to buy it online.
really though, i love it! now, don't get too carried away with it because trust me when i say... a little goes a long way!

Monday, March 28, 2011

double surprise!

we went to our 2nd ultrasound so nervous. 
a lot can happen in one week. 
our hopes for this ultrasound were...
to still have a beating little heart. 
and if we did still have a heartbeat, that it would be up in the 120's
and
we wanted to see the hemorrhage shrinking.

well we had good new... our beating little heart was still there and up at 132! excellent news!
now as for the hemorrhage. well, we found out that it was defiantly NOT just a hemorrhage.
it was in fact a second baby. they referred to it was a vanishing twin.
there were a lot of mixed emotions about that. 
it's exciting to think that my body could possibly make twins but at the same time that's very scary.

all in all, it was a really good day!

you can hardly see that little tiny valiant heart beating away but
 i'll assure you by the way i'm feel that its there!
our bag of good news tricks!

Monday, March 21, 2011

target today...

today sissy, gma and i ventured to one of our favorite places on earth.
target!
there is just something about target and costco that just feels like home. 

here are some goodies that i will be sporting on this round 4 of belly growth.


these sweet jeggings in black are the first addition to my pregnancy uniform!

as a dress not so much but a shirt with those jeggings, yes please

another shirt for me.



our shopping started off just as it should with a popcorn combo. popcorn split 3 ways and a diet coke with lots of ice. oh and three waters for the kids. 
target is always so patient with us and our circus act of children.
shortly after we had everyone situated with the popcorn and drinks we hit the dollar spot like we always do.
the kids grabbed what they could to keep themselves busy while we browse the isles.
austin found a squishy little ball. sis, gma and i were admiring these darling  flower bowls for a certain someone's shower. then, i hear some lady totally getting on to my handsome little boyfriend who had apparently tossed the ball over to the other cart to the girls and had missed. 
SERIOUSLY!
please, please please, don't even go there. you got a problem with my kid... you talk to ME! 
mama bear kicks in and it always gets ugly!
i don't speak to my children that way... why should i let a stranger. i searched her down to tell her how i didn't really appreciate the way she talked to my child when she could have just spoken to me since i was 2 feet away but instead i decided to let it go... very hard for me.  

how does that make you feel?
are you ok with random strangers "raising their voice" at your child when you are right there?
chime in would you!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

cats outta the bag

well folks, my big fat secret is out.
special thanks to my abnormally large subchorionic hemorrhage that sent us into an all kinds of crazy panic.
now pretty much our whole world knows...
we're having another baby!

our news wasn't shared with everyone in a fashion that i had daydreamed but thanks to all the thoughts and prayers we have a little teeny tiny heart beat!

and sooooo

the purpose of this blog is born.

i'm a 26 year old girl.
i'm married to the man of my dreams
and
i'm working on my 4th baby!

so here goes round 4 folks! crazy you may say? yes and i love every bit of my crazy life!

here is where i will share my finding, my faith, my adventures, some most likely worthless to you advice, complaints (i'll tried to limit those), and my victories. i'll try to keep it updated, fashionable, elegant and classy. i hope to have other seasoned veteran mamas, new in game moms and stylish whomevers chime in often.

and now.... enjoy!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

does anything ever go as planned?

plan derailed #1

so, here i sit with a big fat secret!
i've only told a few tight lipped people.
every time i'm around people that don't know i feel the urge to spill the beans.
but the secret is safe. for now that is.

back up like 8 1/2 year. i was a senior in high school and had a "plan". 
i was going to go to graduate, go college and get a degree... didn't really matter in what as long as i had fun getting it. 
somewhere around say, my 25th birthday i would get married.
shortly after that we would have a baby.
and another baby... that's about as far as my "plan" got until i went on this double date fishing trip.
little did i know that that date was the beginning of the demise of my little ol' "plan".
shortly, very shortly after, there i found my self, this 18 year old girl madly in love with the man of my (and my parent's) dreams.
we were created in heaven before we were even came to earth perfectly for each other. we spent every day together. with every day spent we fell more madly in love.
i graduated high school... with him in the audience.
summer started. i went to hawaii, he went to switzerland. 
even though we were half a world away, literally, we were closer and more in love then ever. 
i couldn't live without him. not for another month, week, day or minute... i wanted my life to spent tangled up in his.
he spoke to my father and got his blessing.
we reunited in zurrich. he propose to spend eternity with each other, and i accepted
we planned our wedding. 
in about 8 months my trusty "plan" showed me! 
i was hitched to my lover and only 19.